Hate mail

Dear Ms. Overbearing,

Ever since I was in China you were already demanding too much from me, like as if I can actually do something about it. Teh, i’m miles away from our banks and i’m burdened with 6 units of Mandarin Course. Sige nga, try memorizing hundreds of characters and Chinese words in an hour or so, see if that doesn’t take up most of your time. Besides, even before I left, I already made sure that all my immediate concerns were already addressed. So all you had to do was shut your mouth and be considerate about it. I admit I neglected some of my duties given the limited amount of time that I can actually have fun. Malamang I wont spend that time reading all the updates and emails that didn’t really need my opinion or help. So if you have some brain cells and a mere particle for a heart, then you would realize that that doesn’t mean that I’m a bad officer or that I don’t deserve my position. Girl, I was already here even before you joined the group. It just so happened that I didn’t want to take your position when it was offered to me - that I regret most given that you are now my so called b*tchy ”head”.

I have nothing against your efforts to make it a great year for all of us. I share the same vision dear. That’s exactly why i’m here again nga eh. I ran for this position because I knew it in my heart that i’m the best person for this job. I already know what to do and what to improve on. Even beyond that is the fact that I love this organization. I will do anything I can just to see it progress into a tight-knit family capable of producing excellence. So don’t you dare question my dedication again. Saka think again! Ever since I came back lahat na lang sinusunod ko. I come to meetings kahit kaka-announce lang a day before. So malamang kinacancel ko pa lahat ng naset ko ng appointments. I even arrive hours before you do. And you’re reason for arriving late and leaving early is - “I have some stuff to do”. Woah! I bet if I try making that as an excuse, you’ll be blowing my head off lecturing me on how important it is to be on time, present and active, and whatever bull you can come up with.

Just so you know, I have a personal life aside from our org. I have a family, I have a lovelife and I have a lively social life. So stop calling or texting me every now and then asking for updates and anything else you can think of just to ruin my free time. There’s always a proper time for everything! Live a life dude!!! No, I don’t appreciate you asking for attention during breaks, during weekends and especially during wee hours in the morning or late at night when i’m suppose to be taking some time off away from your weekday-power trip! Give me some air! Stop hovering me like you’re some kind of flea! I very well know my responsibilities and I am doing them professionally. I can even do all your tasks way better than you can actually do - i’m betting my whole life in it.

To hell with you and your eagerness to have sponsors. You effing expect me to come up with 300k in a sem? Aba, sa sobrang kakapressure mo sa ‘kin, haggang alas dos ng umaga nakikipag negotiate ako sa clients ko. Come on! Wala ka ba talagang konsiderasyon at pati sponsors natin eh gusto mong sinisira ang rest period at weekends! Do you even have an effing brain? Even ignorant people know when to give a person space! 

Sobrang nagtimpi na ko sa pagiging obnoxious mo ha. I mean you don’t reply to my urgent emails the way I do when it’s you who asks for help, you don’t respect my decisions (even if all the world would agree with my opinion), you talk like as if you’re my freaking boss (grabe ha, mas kupal ka pa sa pinakakupal na boss sa mundo) and you just don’t improve your attitude. And how dare you text me “Where are you and why are you not here?”. Well maybe it’s because I’m not suppose to be there and I have better things to do than sit there at tumunganga hanggat makaisip ka ng ipapagawa sa akin! I will not settle for this kind of harsh treatment. I will not sacrifice all my time and efforts just to be humiliated. I will not just stand here and have you make me feel like I’m mediocre or that I can’t deliver, when in fact I am doing my best and my outputs are way beyond your expectations. You just hate to admit it. If you keep this up, I’m definitely leaving you guys behind. Teh, there are so many offers out there waiting for me to say yes. So don’t push it girl, ’cause i’d rather be in another org where people can appreciate the love I put into my work.

Grabe, I’m no longer happy with my job because you. I used to love this association. I used to cry over the fact that i’ll be away from it. But now? I’m crying because of your dictatorship. I’m always pissed because of your interventions. And i’m thinking of leaving because I can’t stand to hear you talk with your conyotic language and high pitched voice, nor read your selfish and arrogant texts and emails!!! The worst thing about this is also the fact that you are the first person to make me want to tell the whole world that I detest you. I hate having arguments or misunderstandings with people. Especially people I work with. I’ll be standing at the end of the line if it calls for war freaks. I hate being mad or feeling ill towards anybody. So kudos to you girl! You’re the 1st ever person to make me feel this angry!

Look, if you actually think that i’m shortchanging the org, I will gladly resign. If there’s one thing we can agree on - it’s the fact that this org deserves only the best and most dedicated people in school. And the mere fact that one person would like to contest my competency means that there is indeed something wrong. But whether that’s because you’re such a b*tch or i’m too negligent, that remains to be proven. Just one question though…

If i’m the one who’s really at fault, then how come my colleagues feel the same way towards your so-called leadership?

~Cy~